Archive for January, 2012

I need your Love!

January 31, 2012

I need your Love

We welcome each new year with much anticipation and enthusiasm. But the new year doesn’t bring the change we want. Because we never (or rarely) do what it takes to make change happen. We just wait for wonderful things to happen. Fall out of the sky. Like winning the lottery. But it doesn’t work that way. Not for me anyway. Know what I mean?

2012 is as hard as 2011. Maybe, it’s going to get even harder. My hubby is sick. The love of my life is sick. He might not make it.

He hasn’t taken care of himself. He hasn’t fought for his health. He didn’t even let me or anyone help him. He just keeps getting worse.

It reminds me of people I care about. Bloggers. People on Twitter too. They aren’t getting anywhere. They can’t pay their bills, their taking money from their family, and they can’t make it work.

You’re doing something wrong. I love you enough to say it.

Don’t listen to the happy talk. You’re doing something wrong and you better figure out what it is. Because the only place you are going fast is nowhere. Or maybe somewhere worse. Like Trey Pennington.

Hubby hasn’t seen a doctor in six years. My son finally got him to the emergency room the other night because his legs were ulcerating. Yellow pus was leaking from a dozen or more blisters and welts.

The doctor said hubby drinks too much water which is causing kidney failure and extreme water retention in his legs. Hubby’s complaints of chest pain led led to an x-ray that night which identified a blood clot in his lungs.

Of course, Hubby didn’t want to hear any more bad news, so he checked himself out of the hospital before they could make more tests.

I don’t know what I’ll do without Hubby. We’ve been together 30 years. Don is the love of my life, my soul mate, and my heart. I’m afraid.

I’m afraid for you too. I’m afraid of losing you too.

My daughter’s posted on Facebook about their fears. Don read those posts and, finally, he cried. He finally understood how he was being wrong. It wasn’t just about him giving up on him. Because he was giving up on the family too.

Angel wrote:

… that’s what family’s do! They stay together and love each other. Dad be strong, I love you.

Heather wrote:

I love you so much daddy… You will make it daddy! You always were a fighter up to this day. You have to fight!

Don agreed to go back to the hospital, to fight for his life, and to fight for his family.

Don, I love you. Please fight. Fight harder than you’ve ever fought before. We need you.

My friends, I love you. Please fight harder than you ever fought before. Work together. Help each other.

Honey, I need your love.

Every time you hear this song, EVERY TIME, remember to fight. Because I need your love.

God Bless us, every one!

Bonnie Squires

Would you like to read my other posts?

1. Love doesn’t have to cost anything
2. Laugh, Love, and Blogging #Triberr
3. Are you wonderful people?
4. Can love move as fast as technology?
5. @bonnie67 has love enough for the whole world
6. Love is six parts giving and one part talk
7. Because Love is bigger than anything else

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